20.8.11

DAY THIRTY

I sent you a message yesterday. Did you get it? Admittedly I only had 43 characters to get my point across but I felt I was fittingly succinct. You know what technology is like these days. They say it makes the world smaller, provides infinite possibilities, but paint and board can only go so far. Especially when it comes to emoticons.

Anyway, the point is I texted you. I hope you got it.
:)

6.8.11

NIGHT TWENTY NINE



Heartbeats
The colours red and blue


xx

31.7.11

DAY TWENTY EIGHT feat. Mee


My Grandfather was born and raised in Broken Hill, outback New South Wales. Defined by dust and mining no town could have been further from his desires. Broken Hill was known for its rich orebody. An arc of heavy minerals beneath its streets, the orebody flowed underfoot like a silent river of silver. It was the life-stream of the town. An oasis of the outback.

Everything in Broken Hill was coated in a fine powder of red: the drying washing, the du-coat fence lines, the cat's back, Mrs McGreggor's ashen wig. Its airborne soil cast the township under a rusted haze. A sleepy, scorched, rusted haze. And as my Grandfather played through endless summers of sunburnt days he dreamt only of a salve. A wet to all that dry. A cool to all that heat.

The orebody gave the town its name. Amidst the area's sweeping plains a jagged rocky ridge line rose up from nothing marking one end of the mineral formation. As if the silver had rained from the skies, the broken hill, this peak-less mountain, caught the leadened liquid and from its lee side the river then flowed. But its name was also a prophecy. It wasn't until my Grandfather was a man with a family - who had their own family - that the ridge line finally collapsed under its own weight. The years of pilfering, the years of men and their machines embezzling the rivers riches, caused the hill to break. My Grandfather told me that the collapse wasn't as dramatic as it sounded. It wasn't some cataclysmic implosion that threw up clouds of thick red ash. The hillside didn't spontaneously cast off great slabs of rock from its face. He said it was quiet and slow. A daily erosion. And as a child he swore he could hear it. Lying awake by night he listened to the distant groan. The low cracking and rumbling were calls of a landscape in lament. The miners had tapped the silver artery one too many times in the pursuit of blood. They were incessant. And finally one day the stone ran dry.

Lulled to sleep by the sounds of shifting earth my Grandfather said he would often dream of mountains. Glacial, icy, powder blue, snow-capped mountains. He told me that one dream in particular had always stuck in his mind where he and his brother had decided to walk the Arctic Circle. Both quite determined young men they set off well prepared and equipped ready for the extremity they were about to embark on. Stoked with chests full of courage they boarded a Norwegian breaker in pursuit of their first destination - a tiny island just one degree north of the invisible latitude. From across the rough slate seas they saw the rocky outcrop before them. Its sides reached high into the clouds. The sheer white cliff faces caught the light and cast off a cool blue that was as soft as it was stern. The image stood before them in complete opposition to everything they had experienced up to that point. Just as they took in this other worldly sight an origin-less rumbling began to sound. It grew in intensity, echoing in their ears. The sound was closing in near deafening them when they spied unusual activity in the ocean just off the island's coastline. From below the cliff face, emerging from the salted depths of the Arctic, great shelves of ice broke through the water's surface. In reversed slow motion the sheets rose up. They sucked their splash back into their watery void, rising and rising as if falling upwards. Finally the great chunks affixed themselves to the side of the island like pieces of a puzzle. As the slabs adhered themselves to the icy body from which they were born the noise subsided. The cracking and groaning dimmed to silence. Whole once more the island ceased its call and the landscape finally lay quiet.

27.7.11

HEAT

It burned up. Just like that. 

One moment a physical form occupying space and time, carving the air with its presence. The next, nothing. A relic of negative space. A shape just vanished.
It emanated heat. 
It flashed a fleeting brilliance.
It scorched the sky with its graceful arc.

Her head was on fire. It burned up. Just like that.

21.6.11

MORNING TWENTY SEVEN


I align myself perfectly. Feet towards the sun, head towards the moon. I lay my body perfectly between the two, an invisible line tracing its trajectory across my topography. It scores into me. A searing line of fire torching everything in its path. It burns its trace through my frozen body, igniting skin, splintering bone, reducing me to ash. I lie perfectly still for fear of a false move. One degree more, one angle less and I fall out of orbit. No longer in sync, no longer cyclical, no longer a coordinate of my own constellation. 

But I lay. I align. I submit my self to the sky in a communion between three heavenly bodies. And there I rest watching the paths arch over me until dawn rises once more.

14.6.11

DAY TWENTY SIX



Me and him, we're from different ancient tribes. Sometimes you gotta stick with the ancient ways...you know, the old school ways. But now...we're both almost extinct. You understand me?

Me and him, we're from different blood you know? He's got his clan, I got mine. He tells me his old knowledge but we share no language. Together...we live in the sky. Him worshiping the sun...and me...well, I worship the moon.

But now, we're both almost extinct.

9.5.11

DAY TWENTY FIVE


I sit on the edge for you.
I inch forward for you.
I hold still for you.

One sharp inhale and you shoot me down.

8.3.11

DAY TWENTY FOUR



7:30am my time.
9:30am your time.

Knee deep and silent.
Softness absorbing the sound
of 'happy birthday'.

1.1.11

NIGHT TWENTY THREE


Dear You,

I recently finished reading Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Johnathan Safran Foer and there was a chapter in it that I wanted to read to you. It's called The Sixth Borough. I thought you needed to hear it and I wished I'd written it. It's the perfect way to end the year just gone and the most poetic way to start the next. Plus, re-writing it helps me with my typewriting skills. 

Thanks for sending that to me by the way, it's been really useful. I've been typing everything: letters to the editor, inter-office memos, weekly shopping lists. I got the 'o' fixed so I don't have to write words with a zero in the middle of them anymore. Now words like 'googled' and 'opulent' and 'opinion' and 'zero' no longer make my letters look like an erractic hilly terrain - the kind that might make you carsick if you had to spend more than ten minutes travelling it. Instead they make these generous level plateaus for my message to stretch across. Kind of like the nullabor, but hopefully with more signs of life.  

Also, now I can stop signing off my letters in other languages like German - Ich liebe dich, or Icelandic - Ég elska þig, or Estonian - Minä rakastan sinua. And, I don't have to supplement whole words anymore. For example, you with 'u' or two, to or too with '2'. It's been great, it's really changed the way I write. I have googled sooo many new words on dictionaryreference.com, before sitting down at the typewriter, that I decided it was in my best interests to make it one of my bookmarks. My letters used to be sooo succinct and frugal but now they're wordy and opulent.   

I thought I'd include some old NYC photos I found when I was packing yesterday. Can you believe it's been two years since? And here I am, packing again. It's exciting though, not knowing where I'm going next. Daunting, but sooo exciting. I am excited times 1,ooo,ooo. Anyway, that's enough from me. I hope you enjoy the story and let me know your opinion of it.

I love you sooo much, times two, times 1,ooo,ooo.

Yours trooly,
XX  

THE SIXTH BOROUGH


"Once upon a time, New York City had a sixth borough." "What's a borough?" "That's what I call an interruption." "I know, but the story won't make any sense to me if I don't know what a borough is." "It's like a neighbourhood. Or a collection of neighbourhoods." "So if there was once a sixth borough, then what are the five boroughs?" "Manhattan, obviously, Brooklyn, Queens, Staten Island and the Bronx." "Have I ever been to any of the other boroughs?" "Here we go." "I just want to know." "We went to the Bronx Zoo once, a few years ago. Remember that?" "No." "And, we've been to Brooklyn to see the roses at the Botanic Garden." "Have I been to Queens?" "I don't think so." "Have I been to Staten Island?" "No." "Was there really a sixth borough?" "I've been trying to tell you." "No more interruptions, I promise."
     "Well, you won't read about it in any of the history books, because there's nothing - save for the circumstantial evidence in Central Park - to prove it was there at all. Which makes its existence very easy to dismiss. But even though most people will say they have no time for or reason to believe in the Sixth Borough, and don't believe in the Sixth Borough, they will still use the word 'believe.'
     "The Sixth Borough was also an island, separated from Manhattan by a thin body of water whose narrowest crossing happened to equal the world's long jump record, such that exactly one person on earth could go from Manhattan to the Sixth Borough without getting wet. A huge party was made of the yearly leap. Bagels were strung from island to island on special spaghetti, samosas were bowled at baguettes, Greek salads were thrown like confetti. The children of New York captured fireflies in glass jars, which they floated between the boroughs. The bugs would slowly asphyxiate-" "Asphyxiate?" "Suffocate." "Why didn't they just punch holes into the lids?" "The fireflies would flicker rapidly for their last few minutes of life. If it was timed right, the river shimmered as the jumper crossed it." "Cool."
     "When the time finally came, the long jumper would begin his approach from the East River. He would run the entire width of Manhattan, as New Yorkers rooted him on from opposite sides of the street, from the windows of their apartments and offices, and from the branches of trees. Second Avenue, Third Avenue, Lexington, Park, Eighth, Ninth, Tenth...And when he leapt, New Yorkers cheered from the banks of both Manhattan and the Sixth Borough, cheering the jumper on and cheering each other on. For those few moments that the jumper was in the air, every New Yorker felt capable of flight.
     "Or maybe 'suspension' is a better word. Because what was so inspiring about the leap was not how the jumper got from one borough to the other, but how he stayed between them for so long." "That's true."

     
     "One year - many, many years ago - the end of the jumper's big toe skimmed the surface of the river, causing a little ripple. People gasped as the ripple traveled out from the Sixth Borough back toward Manhattan, knocking the jars of fireflies against one another like wind chimes.
     "'You must have gotten a bad start!' a Manhattan councilman hollered from across the water.
     "The jumper shook his head, more confused than ashamed.
     "'You had the wind in your face,' a Sixth Borough councilman suggested, offering a towel for the jumper's foot.
     "The jumper shook his head.
     "'Perhaps he ate too much for lunch,' said one onlooker to another.
     "'Or maybe he's past his prime,' said another, who'd brought his kids to watch the leap.
     "'I bet his heart wasn't in it,' said another. 'You just can't expect to jump that far without some serious feeling.'
     "'No,' the jumper said to all of the speculation. 'None of that's right. I jumped just fine.'
     "The revelation-" "Revelation?" "Realisation." "Oh yeah." "It traveled across the onlookers like the ripple caused by the toe, and when the mayor of New York City spoke it aloud, everyone sighed in agreement: 'The sixth Borough is moving.'" "Moving!"
     "A millimetre at a time, the Sixth Borough receded from New York. One year, the long jumper's entire foot got wet, and after a number of years, his shin, and after many, many years - so many years that no one could remember what it was like to celebrate without anxiety - the jumper had to reach out his arms and grab at the Sixth Borough fully extended, and then he couldn't touch it at all. The eight bridges between Manhattan and the Sixth Borough strained and finally crumbled, one at a time, into the water. The tunnels were pulled too thin to hold anything at all.
     "The phone and electrical lines snapped, requiring Sixth Boroughers to revert to old-fashioned technologies, most of which resembled children's toys: they used magnifying glasses to reheat their takeaway; they folded important documents into paper aeroplanes and threw them from one office building to another; those fireflies in glass jars, which had once been used merely for decorative purposes during the festivals of the leap, were now found in every room of every home, taking the place of artificial light.
     "The very same engineers who dealt with the Leaning Tower of Pisa...which was where?" "Italy!" "Right. They were brought over to assess the situation.
     "'It wants to go,' they said.
     "'Well, what can you say about that?' the mayor of New York asked.
     To which they replied: 'There's nothing to say about that.'


     "Of course they tried to save it. Although 'save' might not be the right word, as it did seem to want to go. Maybe 'detain' is the right word. Chains were moored to the banks of the islands, but the links soon snapped. Concrete pilings were poured around the perimeter of the Sixth Borough, but they, too, failed. Harnesses failed, magnets failed, even prayer failed.
     "Young friends, whose string-and-tin-can phone extended from island to island, had to pay out more and more string, as if letting kites go higher and higher.
     "'It's getting almost impossible to hear you,' said the young girl from her bedroom in Manhattan as she squinted through a pair of her father's binoculars, trying to find her friend's window.
     "'I'll holler if I have to,' said her friend from his bedroom in the Sixth Borough, aiming last birthday's telescope at her apartment.
     "The string between them grew incredibly long, so long it had to be extended with many other strings tied together: his yo-yo string, the pull from her talking doll, the twine that had fastened his father's diary, the waxy string that had kept her grandmother's pearls around her neck and off the floor, the thread that had seperated his great uncle's childhood quilt from a pile of rags. Contained within everything they shared with one another were the yo-yo, the doll, the diary, the necklace, and the quilt. They had more and more to tell each other, and less and less string.
     "The boy asked the girl to say 'I love you' into her can, giving her no further explanation.
     "And she didn't ask for any, or say 'That's silly,' or 'We're too young for love,' or even suggest that she was saying 'I love you' because he asked her to. Intead she said, 'I love you.' The words traveled the yo-yo, the doll, the diary, the necklace, the quilt, the clothesline, the birthday present, the harp, the tea bag, the tennis racket, the hem of the skirt he one day should have pulled from her body." "Gross!" "The boy covered his can with a lid, removed it from the string, and put her love for him on a shelf in his closet. Of course, he never could open the can, because then he would lose its contents. It was enough just to know it was there.
    "Some, like that boy's family, wouldn't leave the Sixth Borough. Some said, 'Why should we? It's the rest of the world that's moving. Our borough is fixed. Let them leave Manhattan.' How could you prove someone like that wrong? And who would want to?" "I wouldn't." "Neither would I. For most Sixth Boroughers, though, there was no question of refusing to accept the obvious, just as there was no underlying stubbornness, or principle, or bravery. They just didn't want to go. they liked their lives and didn't want to change. So they floated away, one millimetre at a time.
     "All of which brings us to Central Park. Central Park didn't used to be where it is now." "You just mean in the story, right?"


     "It used to rest squarely in the centre of the Sixth Borough. It was the joy of the borough, its heart. But once it was clear that the Sixth Borough was receding for good, that it couldn't be saved or detained, it was decided, by New York referendum, to salvage the park." "Referendum?" "Vote." "And?" "And it was unanimous. Even the most stubborn Sixth Boroughers acknowledged what must be done.
     "Enormous hooks were driven through the easternmost grounds, and the park was pulled by the people of New York, like a rug across a floor, from the Sixth Borough into Manhattan.
     "Children were allowed to lie down on the park as it was being moved. This was considered a concession, although no one knew why a concession was necessary, or why it was to children that this concession must be made. The biggest fireworks show in history lit the skies of New York City that night, and the Philharmonic played its heart out.
     "The children of New York lay on their backs, body to body, filling every inch of the park, as if it had been designed for them and that moment. The fireworks sprinkled down, dissolving in the air just before they reached the ground, and the children were pulled, one millimetre and one second at a time, into Manhattan and adulthood. By the time the park found its current resting place, every single one of the children had fallen asleep, and the park was a mosaic of their dreams. Some hollered out, some smiled unconsciously, some were perfectly still."
     "Dad?" "Yes?" "I know there wasn't really a sixth borough. I mean, objectively." "Are you an optimist or a pessimist?" "I can't remember. Which?" "Do you know what those words mean?" "Not really." "An optimist is positive and hopeful. A pessimist is negative and cynical." "I'm an optimist." "Well, that's good, because there's no irrefutable evidence. There's nothing that could convince someone who doesn't want to be convinced. But there is an abundance of clues that would give the wanting believer something to hold on to." "Like what?" "Like the peculiar fossil record of Central Park. Like the incongruous pH of the reservoir. Like the placement of certain tanks at the zoo, which correspond to the holes left by the gigantic hooks that pulled the park from borough to borough." "No way, jose."
     "There is a tree - just twenty-four paces due east of the entrance to the merry-go-round - into whose trunk are carved two names. There is no record of them in the phone books or censuses. They are absent from all hospital and tax and voting documentation. There is no evidence whatsoever of their existence, other than the proclamation on the tree. Here's a fact you might find fascinating: no less than five percent of the names carved into the trees of Central Park are of unknown origin." "That is fascinating."
     "As all of the Sixth Borough's documents floated away with the Sixth Borough, we will never be able to prove that those names belonged to residents of the Sixth Borough, and were carved when Central Park still resided there, instead of in Manhattan. Some people believe that they are made-up names and, to take the doubt a step further, that the gestures of love were made-up gestures. Others believe other things." "What do you believe?"
     "Well, it's hard for anyone, even the most pessimistic of pessimists, to spend more than a few minutes in Central Park without feeling that he or she is experiencing some tense in addition to the present, right?" "I guess." "Maybe we're just missing things we've lost, or hoping for what we want to come. Or maybe it's the residue of the dreams from that night the park was moved. Maybe we miss what those children had lost, and hope for what they hoped for."
     "And what about the Sixth Borough?" "What do you mean?" "What happened to it?" "Well, there's a gigantic hole in the middle of it where Central Park used to be. As the island moves across the planet, it acts like a frame, displaying what lies beneath it." "Where is it now?" "Antartica." "Really?"


"The sidewalks are covered in ice, the stained glass of the public library is straining under the weight of the snow. There are frozen fountains in frozen neighbourhood parks, where frozen children are frozen at the peaks of their swings - the frozen ropes holding them in flight. Livery horses-" "What's that" "The horses that pull the carriages in the park." "They're inhumane." "They're frozen mid-trot. Flea-market vendors are frozen mid-haggle. Middle-aged women are frozen in the middle of their lives. The gavels of frozen judges are frozen between guilt and innocence. On the ground are the crystals of the frozen first breaths of babies, and those of the last gasps of the dying. And, on a frozen shelf, in a closet frozen shut, is a can with a voice in it."

21.12.10

DAY TWENTY TWO

HOW TO ASSEMBLE A FREECYCLED BIKE

Welcome to the latest concept in riding technology: the freecycled bike. 
Your most recent acquisition is as green as the hills you will soon be riding. All of the parts that make up this bike, from the hubs to the handlebar tape, have been collected, gifted or recieved by donation. In other words, entirely free! In addition, the construction of the bike has been a true labour of love as all the parts are second hand, a testament to the local biking community and their inability to throw things away. To top it all off, the freecycle is quite literally green! So as you peddle around the streets of the vintage bike capital of Australia make sure you do so with a certain smugness. Not the usual type seen on the faces of hipsters with their fixies, but the type associated with knowing your freecycled pushy doesn't need fuel, material consumption, ego or lattes to power it. In fact, by choosing to ride this beast you are not only lowering your carbon tyre tread but theirs too...and for that they owe you a latte. 
Happy freecycling! xx
 
step one> Open your ridiculously big box. Childlike excitement included.

step two> Attach peddles to cranks remembering that left pedal is reverse thread.
               Left pedal is marked L
               Right pedal is marked R


step three> Attach wheels making sure the wheel is centered between brake pads.
                 Be aware the locking washers on the front wheel remain on the outer edge of the 
                 forks. See image below.



step four> Spin handlebars until in the correct forward position. See image below for 
               correct angle. The angle of the handles should be in line with the top bar. 


step five> Tighten front bolt. See image below.


step six> Tighten top bolt. See image below.


step seven> Ride with gay abandon around the streets of the vintage bike capital of Australia!


welcome home/happy birthday/merry christmas. in that order. xx

17.12.10

DAY TWENTY ONE


When I was nine my two sisters and I spent a considerable amount of time in factories. Not so much in the child slave labour sense where we might be paid $4.16 an hour to clean the cages of battery hens but more as a form of entertainment. Of course, now that I look back on it, I realise this wasn't the usual choice. Other children wouldn't have taken rusting heavy machinery and an increased chance of tetanus over a comfortable evening of popcorn and Pierce Brosnan. But in a sleepy post-industrial town the options were somewhat limited. You either risked flocks of cranky, disease-ridden pigeons as playmates or chose to be hypnotised by the jiggly arms of Elsie Toothern shaking your deep-fried chips of their oil. After a brief discussion and three artery-clogging meals at Toothie's Takeaway my sisters and I agreed. We opted for bird-flu.

Madeleine, the eldest, always angled for us to play in the old biscuit factory. It was a cavernous building whose lingering smell was a reminder of its previous life. As romantic as that might sound, it was not. The trapped air baked under the day-long sun as if the building was holding its breath until we arrived. Being the strongest Maddy would force back the rusted, once rolling, metal door and from its hot, sour mouth the factory would finally exhale. It was reminiscent of an old man's yawn, had he eaten a packet of Milk Arrowroots just half an hour prior. 

I matched Maddy's eagerness to play amongst the slackened conveyor belts and five-person ovens. Unlike other forgotten warehouses its eroding insides harboured a second life. Echoing empty extruders now played host to a young family of rats, silver pathways along which our imaginary Ginger Snaps travelled had been bombed by the birds above, and the matted piles of half-rotten hair protectors provided excellent insulation for the nests of both. On a good day you might not even notice the smell. Just fifteen minutes of acclimatisation and you could be forgiven for wondering if Mum might bake a batch of Jam Drops for dessert that night.

However our younger sister Anna didn't share our sentiments. She just didn't appreciate all the old biscuit factory offered. Her eyes only saw the residual licks of black smoke along the exhaust fan edging or the mould-lined cutting moulds. When she complained that the floury cloud perpetually hanging in the air made her throat dry I dismissed it, telling her to think of it as an exotic micro-climate. Her enchantment with the factory was as lacklustre as the redundant machines it housed. For her the biscuit factory equated to a lot of 'make' but to me it was a lot of 'believe'.

15.12.10

DAY TWENTY


My heart leaps up when I behold 
          A rainbow in the sky: 
          So was it when my life began; 
          So is it now I am a man;
          So be it when I shall grow old,
Or let me die...
My heart leaps up when I behold
           An apparition of the sky:
           So is this heavenly body of no flesh;
           Marking rains fallen fresh;
           'She'll never be yours' I am told,
          
                      This elusive love between the sun and I...

14.12.10

DAY NINETEEN


Sometimes, when I am really bored, I like to think about you. Mainly in the moments when not much is happening. When I am leant up against the kitchen bench waiting for the kettle to boil or sitting through commercials about incontinence pads that claim their miraculous feat of absorption my mind drifts to that familiar place. There you stake your claim, set up camp and inhabit the corner of my mind reserved especially for moments of nothingness. 

As I pass by Mr Samson fastidiously trimming his white Azalea's or wait for the girl at the checkout with the lazy eye to ring up my loaf of bread and three apples I like to wonder what you're up to. I wonder where you are now and if you might also be buying a loaf of bread and three apples. We could be connected in that sense. Sort of  like a parallel universe. Just as my loaf is waved along its invisible flight path before the scanner so is yours, travelling the space between another lazy-eyed attendant and her register in some other part of the world. It would be right then in that chordal moment that our loaves would chime together. The only difference being of course that my bread is white and yours is undoubtedly wholemeal.

You were funny like that. For someone who could drown their long day at work in a packet of  the cheapest and nastiest lollies, a food I thought closely resembled hyper-coloured nuggets of rubber, you always insisted on buying wholemeal. "White bread is so processed," you would say. Having never expressed any other dietary concerns it always struck me as odd. Your diatribe sounded distinctly rehearsed. "It's a refined carbohydrate, Simon. They remove all traces of the husk and bran, bleach the flour then go and add gluten and raising agents to it to make sure it actually rises. By the time it reaches the shelves there is next to no nutritional value." You would tell me as if I was in desperate need of educating. But instead of being informative and interesting it reminded me more of a high school science teacher recently made redundant.

That was another thing I did between events; I liked to weigh up your contradictions. Just like each apple that made its movement from the counter to the scales I would mentally figure and balance them:
     One. You would loudly claim the ridiculousness of religion given it was essentially based on stories and hearsay. Yet you did so over the crumpled edge of the Sunday paper having just read me your horoscope. 
     Two. Whenever you saw teenagers silently texting in each others company you would hold the technology responsible for a modern breakdown in communication. But anytime caller ID drew the eight lucky digits of your mother's number you would pretend not to be home. 
     Three. Despite your feminist values on marriage - "It's so archaic. It only reinforces outdated ideas of gender roles." - I can still recall the morning of Marc and Eva's wedding when I caught you stuffing your coat sleeves with extra wads of tissues.

It was in the lulls that I enjoyed itemising your inconsistencies. It brought a sense of order to something that was chaotic by nature. Sometimes I would rank them from most annoying to least or alphabetise them: Afraid of spiders, Bad breath in the morning, Cries over period dramas, Dry elbows, and so it went. Mentally picking and choosing their arrangements I created whole shopping lists of shortcomings. In the end though they were just like the apples. In the end the habit cost me. Everytime I sunk my teeth into your faults and chewed them over I was thinking of you and since you'd left. Nothing had tasted as sweet.

9.12.10

DAY EIGHTEEN


Everytime I walk back home from your house the word mocks me. It nags at my guilty self. Just as each step is reassuringly repetitive yet painfully familiar as is my mistake, over and over and over. As I pass by I often wonder if the vandal considered his audience? Was his parental tone specifically for me and my shameful Sunday morning pilgrimage? Did he predict his actions would speak louder than his word? 
I doubted it. All he thought was set on stone.

21.11.10

NIGHT SEVENTEEN feat. Joss



I'm a better woman than I've ever been,
'Cause now I know the score.
I got my sights square on my dreams,
I can't be talked at no more.
You try to tell me that, 'That ain't the truth.'
You say, 'You gotta dream small.'
But I'll believe it when you show me the proof,
and you can watch as I fall.
'Cause see now I got better things to do,
I got a new life and I'm feelin' right on.
No longer will I listen to you,
'Cause my head is high and my spirit is strong.


xx

1.11.10

DAY SIXTEEN


all he said was 'Hold on.'

all i said was 'Don't let go.'

all he thought was 'I've got u.'

all i thought of was u.  

13.9.10

DAY FIFTEEN


she took to the sea 
paddling in its promise
of a brand new year


happy birthday. xx

9.9.10

DAY FOURTEEN


Even if it meant splicing time,
he was flying.
Even if it meant suspending disbelief,
he was flying.
Even if it meant an impact harder than the sobering truth of gravity,
he was flying.
The moment he closed his eyes he felt it,
this is flying.

4.9.10

EVENING THIRTEEN


My Grandad used to race bikes. He was part of a club. Not like the kind of club you see these days mobbing the cafes en masse, replete with lycra and the 'Business Section'. No, these guys were dedicated. It was only a small club. Four members in total to be exact. Apparently they met during their University days. All engineering students. None were what you would call studious though. It was only when a chain came off or in a pursuit to best a downhill record that lessons in mechanical advantage were ever learnt. They would ride 100 miles. Twice a week. If one of them got a puncture the others would whizz by and shout 'see you friday'